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Go on and eat the bitter fruit...

I'm so all over the place today...

I'm serious - i feel like I can't get my body and my mind to co-exist in the same temporal plane for more than 5 seconds at a time. It's like some sort of crazy caffeine rush when, wait for it... I haven't had any caffeine ALL day!. Hmmn. Could it be withdrawal then?

Right Right. I'm 100% over my issues with last week. Hormones can really turn your whole world upside down - you know? Well, actually those of you sporting peni probably can't even begin to comprehend what I mean, but we'll give you the benefit of the doubt since everyone has their dark days. In the meantime there are new and equally complex conundrums that have taken over the majority of my concious thoughts.

For example: I made a 180 on Monday night... WORE red, (and black and a bustier-type top, and fishnets) gave out Valentines, and had an awesome time. Basically, i decided that a fierce approach to Valentine's Day would suit me best. I blame Pat Bennitar and the "80's at 8 on PLJ". But I'm glad I didn't bail on the evening, because the Kaiser Chiefs are just fabulous dancey good fun, and i flat out loooooved their contagiously energetic set. See Nora or Audrey for a more extensive/coherent review - as i might have mentioned before, i'm having difficulty concentrating on anything today... including this entry, lol

Separate, almost Jack Handy-esque thought for today...
Have you ever wanted to know absolutely everything there is to know about someone or something? Right. We all have. But what if your pursuit was likely to destroy you (emotionally - duh)? Do you still put yourself through it? Or do you walk away without ever discovering anything deeper than what you've already been exposed to? I myself chose the destruction. But I have always been a living, breathing example of the phrase "curiosity killed the cat". When I want to know something, there is very little that will keep me from what I am seeking. And I'm not afraid to bend the rules to get at what I want either... some of you know that better than others. And for that, I apologize... it's a fault of mine, one that I'm trying to keep more in check these days. But back to the destruction - I'm choosing it, or it's chosen me. While I'm learning to let the little things lie, I can't walk away from the greater mysteries of my life. I am driven by my need to consume, to be captivated by the subjects of my interest... I cannot willingly choose ignorance, not when the bright shiny apple is standing before me. I own my original sin, I revel in the juice as it dribbles down my chin...

What? Like paradise was so great anyways? No clothes, no shoes, no children, no booze...

ok. more on that later. Time for me to bug out & get on my way to Atomique.